My guitar

Gosh.. it felt so familiar.. I haven't played in ages.. I just started listening to tears in heaven by Eric Clapton and I had this overwhelming urge to go and play, and play I did. And it felt so familiar. And I remembered the smell of my guitar, the strings, the sound, it was heartbreakingly familiar, to think that I had ignored it for so long. In that instant, I was back in the practice room, having my lesson as if it was yesterday. Like so long ago. I guess that's why I haven't played for so long, it reminded me of home. And everytime I played, it reminded me of home and how far away that was. Made me feel sad. Explains why I kept it hidden for so long. I just forgot about it. How could I? But it was so familiar, it fit, it was just beautiful, in that moment, I felt home.

Love is a many splendoured thing

It's inevitable, love. I'ts everywhere, it's timeless, it's beautiful, it takes your breath away. I resent that some have it, because I can't seem to figure it out. I can see people falling in love, already in love, the security, the happiness. It's innocent and beautiful and oh, so, fragile.

and I wonder if it can truly happen, for real, falling in love and just believing that everything will be ok. Because, I know the feeling of falling in love, being in love, it makes u believe, it shows that anything is possible. When you're in love, you don't think about the future, because it's uncertain, u stick with what you know, that is, that you love each other, pure and simple, no two ways about it, and well, what happens next? It doesn't matter anymore, you don't want to know if it's going to end or disappear, for now, it's here and all you can really do, is treasure it. Because at this one point in time, u have hope and belief that it's all going to be ok, maybe we need to believe in that, that everything will be fine, that it's all going to work out, we have to.

Love is so rare, why let reality spoil it? We just have to believe in it, to know that things will be ok, that no matter what happens, we will always have it. they say in movies, that they don't show it, the fights, the ugliness, but really, I feel that when a person falls in love, u just can't believe that such a thing is possible, you know it is, but hope tells u that it will be ok. love teaches hope.

Chocolate

Hmm.. bittersweet chocolate... the best ever. It makes u think. How can something be bittersweet? I was thinking about it (and eating the chocolate) and then I realised... the chocolate is sweet when u first take a bite but it leaves a bitter aftertaste, so, really, bittersweet. And that got me thinking... hmm... some things are like that aren't they? so sweet at first, then really bitter once it's gone, it's like, the chocolate is good while u have it, but once it's eaten, and gone, the bitter taste is a reminder of how good it was. It's a reminder of what you once had. That's the beautiful part, that's bittersweet chocolate.

There was another part of this post but it seems to have eluded me. oh yes, it comes back to me now, bear with me, this is unconventional as a way of posting, but who cares? *shrugs*

I was reading the bonesetter's daughter by Amy Tan yesterday night and there was a particular part in it that I never did really understand. It talks about the four manifestations of beauty. I won't tell u all about it, tht would be a spoiler, but the fourth manifestation is effortless, the highest level, the simplicity of everything, of just looking and, seeing and not making assumptions. This level was likened to falling in love. The main character says, "lately I have felt this beauty of effortlessness in all things". and the girl replies, "the effortlessness with which one falls in love." And I was always like, wat? effortlessness? love? no way, and then I was lying down in bed, about to fall into the deep abyss of sleep and then it occurred to me, falling in love is effortless, it just happens, u cannot place the time or place or moment. it just happens. And you can't stop it. And it's beautiful, because that is wat it is, u cannot create it, u cannot force it, it's just that, effortless. Because the thing is, it takes NO EFFORT at all to fall in love, u just fall, and sometimes, u don't know you're falling until you have fallen. That's the beauty of it, so carefree, and natural. so effortless.