It's gonna be better...

Things are going to get better. They have to. I have been all asunder lately. Nothing makes sense. The more I try the harder it becomes. And it's all in me threatening to blow me up. In times like these I am glad I have a blog to keep me somewhat sane. Sometimes I wonder why I'm not out there doing the things I love. The things I want to do. I wish I had the guts to just go and do it. Just leave whatever it is behind and just go for it. But I can't. I like my plans and lists and all that they stand for. People expect so much and I'm supposed to deliver. I can't even see the end or the light at the end of the tunnel. I can't see what it is I'm supposed to be. And it used to be so clear... :(